I Have Loved and Lost.

You never really think your mind could be swiped clean. Even less likely your sin, and even harder to expect... your heart. You never really think there is anything you can do about the pain you feel. No way to make it truly go away. There are only two false options to the human eye. You can lie. Lie to others for so long that you will actually convince your mind of the same. I call it; "lying to the point of self destruction," for your heart will never believe what your mind will. The second option is to run away. Run away in hopes that the heart will forget. Which, it never does.

These two options have blinded this heartbroken world into believing one giant lie. You can not escape heartache. You can not outrun heartbreak, and you can not forget a love. These tactics have only brought on the false hope that material nouns and lust can piece together a terminal heart.

So what is left to believe besides never ending heartache? These past years I have been running, pretending, and lying. Only in the past few weeks have I tried to dig past my human walls. Instead I have tried to endure. Which doesn't work so well either. I'd advise against it. But I did discover a third option.

Accept it.

I am constantly trying to "man up" or not worry about all my dumb feelings, when in reality they just build up. Instead of running, lying, and cheating your heart out of feelings we were meant to have, accept them. Admit you loved and lost. Your battle with will and fate will never work out in your favor. God will never use situations to hurt you. He will only make you stronger. Instead of forcing your will to forget a love or pursue a love, put your love into the hands of the only one who knows how it will all play out. He is the master of this play called life. And no matter how hard you run or how good a liar you are, you will never win your heart back.

Take this time to give God your heart; he's the only one who won't break it.