Powerful words for so few letters. They can make the alone feel united, the hurt feel comforted, the brokenhearted heard.
Do you feel alone? Do you feel like no one understands that wrench lodged into your heart? The one that pulls at you when you feel the least bit comforted? The one that is so strong that there is just no beating it? It feels like there's no beating it? Me too.
I have felt the heartache you feel. The heartache you will feel. The heartache you have felt. The heartache you hate to think of. The heartache you haven't dealt with, the one you buried. Me too.
Love is hard. Love is vulnerable. Love in selfless. Love is powerful. Love is universal. Heartbreak ...is universal.
The loss of a family. Loss of a friend. The loss of your lover. The loss of your pet. The loss of yourself. The loss of everything that you have ever held dear... that kind of loss is universal.
I never knew that "me too" could be so comforting. When we are experiencing that brokeness in our heart, what do we believe with all that is left. That no one can know what this possibly feels like because it
is
so
real.
That we are alone in the enourmous world and no one should have the right to say "me too." Because they could not possibly understand our pain that is so beyond anything we have ever felt. Like a thousand knives peircing our pride, our feelings, and our vulnerable love. You never have to hurt over a stranger. You only experience heartbreak with those that you love.
Now imagine... loving everyone.
Imagine giving life to every human being. You know these children so well that you can recite the number of hairs on their head. Imagine you love these human beings so immensly that you would lay down your life just to see them live one more day. Imagine taking the few that you are brave enough to love and multiplying the stakes by a thousand. Now try mulitplying it by millions... billions. Imagine the person you love most on the earth saying no when you offer them love. Imagine everyone you've ever loved and them all saying no at the same time. Heartbreak. Beyond all imagination... heartbreak.
Imagine that someone has it worse than you. Imagine that heartbreak wasn't only universal... that is stretches beyond the heavens. Imagine God, the creator, the most massive power holder, the greatest spirit to ever invade the earth... imagine Him saying "me too."
Everyday Gods heart breaks. Everyday it's millions that say no in their heart. Millions. That's a million people rejecting His love. Rejecting His light. Rejecting His heart. Millions.
Imagine having the power of making Love... conditional. Making that person that said no to you, that person that rejected you, love you. Giving them no options and making their love for you forever. They would never stop loving everything about you. Imagine having that power...
Imagine... not using it.
Imagine enduring millions of heartbreaks everyday... for eternity. Forever.
God makes Himself vulnerable. Everday to us He makes His love known, and yet we refuse it. He came in the truest form of Love. Jesus. Jesus was the purest Love God could give us. He had nothing to hinder it.
My heart breaks when I think of how God's heart breaks. He is so good. I accept His Love. Whole heartedly I want it to overflow inside me and pour out onto all who are willing to be vulnerable. All who are willing to love.
God is love, and Love is like Oxygen. Breathe Him in.
