Take Me Back

Sorry that I'm not good at this. I'm not good at letting go of anything. That wasn't what I was doing. You should know it was just stubbornness that drove us apart. I still want it. I thought you did. But I did say exactly that, and you kept shoving it back at me. Now tell me that I didn't try, you're remembering now. How is someone supposed to apologize for two people and never be accepted time after time and still have strength to stick around? I thought I told you how I felt. I thought you understood. We both didn't want to hear what was said, but I let me succumb to it. I'm sorry that my apologies aren't enough. I should have known that what you meant by shoving them back in my face, was a cry for me to stay. Sorry I missed that. We can still get through this. But I can't be the only one that’s sorry. I'm stubborn, unreliable, incredibly forgetful, hard to read, and just plain blind. But you knew this when you said I love you, and you should know that I am trying to fix me. But I can't apologize anymore while you sit there with an empty voice and first class send my sorrys back to my heart. I still love you, and everything about you. I love that you are just as stubborn, if not more, as I am. I love that we have been through life together. That without you, I would be even more messed up than I am now. I love that you know how scatterbrained I am and that in the past you have given me someone to cry to when I can't stand all that is crashing down. Please don't let me put to chords all that is going through my head. I just want to hear your voice, not a melody to what failed.