Revalation.

I'm good at knowing what I should do, and doing the opposite. Not that I'm robbing banks or anything, but I'm cheating myself out of an easy way out. I've felt this way for so long that I was afraid of giving up on something again. I didn't know what life would be like if you weren't in it. Now I know. It's not like I expected, it's so much better. You are my friend, we are good friends. I was so afraid it would jeopardize all that we've been through and that being a friend wouldn't be enough. When it turns out that it is so much easier to be happy for you rather than unhappy with myself. You deserve so much, and I'm finally discovering that so do I. I'm going to start taking my own advice and diving head first into a relationship with God. He is the one that closed the door and opened many. I just never saw it till now.