Enough is enough.

It's never enough. What I say, what I do, what I don't. I'm worthless to you. Do I want to get close again? You know how hard it is to lose. The fight, the childhood, my heart, my mind. You said I'd never have to lose you. But how can I keep you, all you want is to run from me. It's my fault; it’s always been my fault. Think of the last apology that came out of your mouth, and then try to convince yourself that it wasn't that long ago. That you don't need to own up to at least 1% of the damage. That the flooding will stop as soon as I call, or drive, or make an effort. It's not that you won't apologize; it's that you won't fight. Nothing I do will ever be good enough because you take take take. I can only give so much. You've made me weak, I'm drowning, and for this you will ask me to apologize. And for this reason I won't. I am not what you need; I now know that I have never been. My life has taught me to not be dependant on people. I am human, I can not be everywhere at once, I can not hear your thoughts, I can not predict your mood theme parks, and for a long while I have not been your friend. I am simply not good enough for your standards. Hope you find someone who can get inside. For ten years now, I know I've only failed.